{"id":133,"date":"2012-01-13T17:33:00","date_gmt":"2012-01-13T17:33:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ken-beck.com\/words\/2012\/01\/13\/pebbles-tossed-2\/"},"modified":"2012-01-13T17:33:00","modified_gmt":"2012-01-13T17:33:00","slug":"pebbles-tossed-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ken-beck.com\/words\/2012\/01\/pebbles-tossed-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Pebbles Tossed&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><i>[Not following my previous practice, I returned home right after class. It took me a while to get home, though not because of the snow. My internal dialogue was making so much racket, that I was temporarily unable to remember how to get home. Once I got myself straightened out, and the truck pointed in the right direction, I still missed all my cues and stumbled over my chore list. Dangerous.]<\/i><\/p>\n<p>I was at the studio early this morning and had a bit more time to read. I read two movements from the <a href=\"http:\/\/www.biography.com\/people\/johann-sebastian-bach-9194289\" rel=\"biographycom\" title=\"Johann Sebastian Bach\">Bach<\/a> <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/French_Suites%2C_BWV_812-817\" rel=\"wikipedia\" title=\"French Suites, BWV 812-817\">French Suite<\/a> in G, the <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Allemande\" rel=\"wikipedia\" title=\"Allemande\">Allemande<\/a> and the <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Sarabande\" rel=\"wikipedia\" title=\"Sarabande\">Sarabande<\/a>. Both are pre-classic dance forms that are filled by Bach with much emotion and honey. I took the time to read them accurately and with all the ornaments. They are both slow and stately. I guess, for me, slow is back.<\/p>\n<p>Then, with the students now coming in, I read the Rondo (Allegretto Grazioso) from the <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Piano_Sonata_No._13_%28Mozart%29\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Mozart Sonata in Bb, K333.<\/a> This was prima vista reading. Yes, I&#8217;ve read all of these before, but not since my Mozart blowout in the &#8217;90s. I think you&#8217;re a virgin again after three years. So I did the smarmy thing and started out too fast. Had to double back when I couldn&#8217;t play the sixteenths at that tempo. I stopped at the bottom of each page, turned the page, and put another score against it to hold the book open. It&#8217;s a basically virgin copy, since I bought it and haven&#8217;t cracked it that much. So eventually I stopped trying to hold myself back, but just raced through. Sloppy, but so what? Mozart said &#8220;Father, that kind of sight-reading and shitting are all the same to me!&#8221; Well, Wolfie, a good shit is really useful from time to time.<\/p>\n<p>Turning to the Fakebook, I read &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/I_Could_Write_a_Book\" rel=\"wikipedia\" title=\"I Could Write a Book\">I Could Write a Book<\/a>.&#8221; I read this just playing the melody and voicing the chords, taking the time to read the text. This kind of choked me up a bit.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;If they asked me, I could write a book<br \/>about the way you walk and whisper and look.<br \/>I could write a preface on how we met<br \/>so the world would never forget.<br \/>And the simple secret of the plot<br \/>is just to tell them that I love you a lot.<br \/>Then the world discovers as my book ends<br \/>how to make two lovers a friend.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Yikes! Who&#8217;s guiding this random sample!<br \/>(Do I need to revisit my opinions about God?)<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, to get the mist out of my vision, I read it in tempo, with boom-chicks and some swing.<\/p>\n<p><i>[Class was the same as yesterday, except that the instructor dropped the pop song. Applause at the end was scattered and not&nbsp; aimed at me. Did I fail? I don&#8217;t really think so. I just think the dancers are now distracted by the deepening rehearsal process. I hit the road.]<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>[Repeat my opening paragraph, as in a Rondo.]<\/i><br \/><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><i>           <\/i>   I came home to write in the comfort and privacy of my own home, in the off chance I needed to have a bit of privacy while doing it. Now why would this be? I went over all of this last evening with Del, but I don&#8217;t much feel like sharing. I could write (another) book. I might. I should. Though &#8211; I haven&#8217;t sold the first one yet. It&#8217;s good to have a fertile imagination, to not be running dry. But I also might just let it hang for the next few months. Let the fictions be truly hammered out in the summers. Do I think I&#8217;ll forget this story? If it&#8217;s really my horse, it will return to me.<\/p>\n<p><i>[I&#8217;ve got the first sentence, though not the title:<\/i><br \/><i>&#8220;Shit,&#8221; he exclaimed. &#8220;I&#8217;ve been cut off!&#8221;<\/i><br \/><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><i>Despite my desire to silence the voice that speaks this pack of lies,<\/i><br \/><i>the argument does not cease:<\/i><br \/><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><i>&#8220;I&#8217;d been lobbing pebbles up at that window for a fortnight, standing in the streetlight, rain or shine. Sometimes, I saw the light. Sometimes there was a shadow there. Sometimes, I saw the curtain drawn an inch or so as if someone were peeking. A barrage of pebbles, after all, can be upsetting. Especially after hours. Sure enough, I saw the plywood go up as if in preparation for a hurricane. I heard the pounding of the hammer loud and clear. Now what? Go find a bigger rock? Now comes the courrier with a note on lilac paper. What&#8217;s this? I&#8217;ve been granted an audience it seems. But still the hammering continues. The meaning of all of this is obscure. It is not a negotiation, it is a contradiction. It is time to return home. Return home. Do I remember where that is? If I can find the way I&#8217;ll be welcome.&#8221;<\/i><br \/><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><i>The truth of the matter is way too much reality for a piece of fiction. So no. I can&#8217;t\/won&#8217;t go into any of it here.]<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Other than that, there&#8217;s no way to go but back with my survey of dance and music. What have I seen in the course of the 30 odd years?<\/p>\n<div style=\"height: 15px; margin-top: 10px;\">That, little Adam, is another story&#8230;<\/div>\n<div style=\"height: 15px; margin-top: 10px;\"><i>[and who&#8217;s reading this at this point, after all&#8230;]<\/i><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[Not following my previous practice, I returned home right after class. 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